REFLECTION FROM SEPTEMBER 23RD, 2008**
RE: IDEALISM AND THE CRUELTY OF LIFE
WRITTEN – 9/23/2008 @ AGE 27
I’m reading the Lord of the Rings and it’s phenomenal. I’m wild about hobbits but I can’t tell you why. Their adventures and that ring mesmerize me. My life is so boring. People seem to think I’m going to be able to pass this bar exam, but that couldn’t feel further from the truth. It’s funny you get your brains bashed out from under you for being an idealist, and then when you finally become a realist they have the gall to tell you to be an optimist. A#@holes. The whole lot of them. I feel there’s no way in hell or the high heavens above I’m going to pass that exam the first time around. And to be honest, I can really see myself as being the kind of person who has to take the damn thing three times lucky. It’s such a cruel sentence. Life is such a cruel sentence. You wish for something and it comes true, but then you merely find that life still sucks. It doesn’t really matter what you wish for or whether it comes true; for some people life just plain sucks. It’s always a struggle. What ohh what would I be without struggle.
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