*NOTE – THIS ENTRY HAS TO DO WITH BEING BIPOLR – IF YOU ARE NOT INTO LEARNING MORE ABOUT THAT SORT OF THING IT’S TOTALLY OKAY WITH ME, I JUST WANT YOU TO BE FOREWARNED SO YOU DON’T FEEL I’VE WASTED YOUR TIME WITH THIS MATERIAL*
I just wanted to take a moment to let my listeners know about medication, and how it is handled for the mentally ill. I myself am bipolar. I take five different medications throughout the day, one in the morning when I first get up, one shortly thereafter, a couple mid-morning, sometimes one in the afternoon as needed, and most the rest at night which make me sleepy, not only at night but in the morning too when I try (i.e. have) to get out of bed to attend work to make my paycheck to pay for my meds and the docs that provide them for me. My mood stabilizers make me very sleepy, which is why I take them at night, as does my anti-depressant, which I take at night too. The other that I take in the morning helps me to wake up and then the other two during the day help me to stay awake and alert (and focused enough to accomplish actual “work” at work, so I can keep my job) and also to calm me down if something severely out of the ordinary occurs and I find I have trouble dealing with it because my emotions react in the same manner as others’, just to a far greater extent, to the lengths of a far greater range if you will.
So, I just want to let people know, who sometimes have a hard time understanding why mentally ill people have so much trouble staying on their medications, part of the reason is that while all the “normal” people are watching their TV shows or reading in bed or doing whatever it is that they do on Sunday nights, I sit and count pills and make sure I know which bottles have to be filled when and how much I’m supposed to be taking of each since I last saw the doctor one week ago and he made changes to help curb my side effects, which did so, but then caused alternative side effects. I do wonder if anyone who would be considered “normal” could see how tiring this could be. To have to take all this medication just to be able to function as a “normal human being” in this society, and even then, to be treated by so many like I am such an as#@ole because I am particular and have some difficulty more so than the norm in dealing with changes out of the ordinary. I cannot help it. I wish sometimes I were normal too, seems it would be so much easier. But I just cannot help it. I was born this way and I have no choice but to live by the strictures of this disorder.