**WARNING – Please note that this was written during a state of depression and does not necessarily reflect how I feel today, except possibly of course, the grains of truth that spring forth here and there.**
Reflection from February 10, 2008 @ 26 Years Old
REGARDING – CAPITALISM AND CONCERN FOR OUR CHILDREN
I was thinking the other day about high school, remembering how I used to dread going in on Monday and Fridays because everyone would be all, “what are you going to do this weekend”, and “what did you do last weekend?” I remember how ashamed I was, how hard it was to hide that I didn’t have any friends and stayed home every Friday and Saturday night.
How can you explain to other teenagers that being around other people is far more painful than being alone? And I’ll tell you, everyone knows the agony of living alone in this life; can you imagine that living alone actually felt better than interacting with peers and potential friends of my own age? How does a teenager explain such a thing to herself?
Which led me to think, how in the world can you explain to a child why other children get to have new clothes and go on vacations and do fun things while other children are not so lucky. I think it’s telling that adults have constantly to lie to children in order to protect them from the very world they brought them into.
Some people think it’s a selfish act, to not want to have children, but if we’re judging – who’s to say it’s not more selfish to make carbon copies, when you could help out a child who’s already been born into this hell on earth without a soul who actually cares for them?
How in the world do you explain to a child that some kids have parents who love them, and others have parents who beat them and molest them and degrade them? I don’t understand how ever people choose to bring children into this world. Except that I can, and I’m sure in most instances (except of course rape, and the like) it’s only the temporary euphoria of love that in fact, does make this world go round.
Well maybe not round, but I’m sure love is primarily responsible for repopulation of human beings on this earth. It’s such a shame that this love that brings children into this otherwise unbearable life of suffering, is primarily what a person spends their entire life suffering in search for.