Reflection from November 28, 2001**
RE: PAYMENT OF RECOGNITION TO SELF – STEP NO.1 IN THE PROCESS OF STOPPING THE INERTIA THAT WOULD OTHERWISE CAUSE YOU TO BECOME SOMEBODY YOU DON’T WANT TO BE
WRITTEN: 11/28/2001 @ AGE 19
You know those times you sometimes go through when you just feel like a horrible excuse for a human being? Well this is definitely one of those times…or at least one of those days! I just finished reading “Little Alters Everywhere” and it made me realize how very materialistic I am which sucks, because I don’t want to be like that at all you know. But then it’s like, how do I not be like that? How do you change and where do you begin? Aww who knows these things you know? If it were only that simple.
And I feel like I have lost Gillian for good to Kauzi and overall evil in general and it sucks. I feel like I have been betrayed by a friend, but at the same time I feel like I haven’t been the best of friends myself. Ugh!
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