Reflection from July 17th, 2007 @ Age 26
RE: BEAUTY — WHEN YOU CAN SEE IT, BUT CANNOT YET FEEL IT ALL THE SAME..
Did I ever tell you it’s most beautiful out when it rains? I’ve noticed it before but I really am seeing it now. It’s beautiful in Coventry underneath the rain! I went for a walk in the rain which, incidentally—I was just thinking how fun it would be this morning to go for a walk in the rain because it was looking as though it might rain.
I can’t speak for tomorrow but right now, in this moment, I’m in love with life. It’s refreshing! A breath of fresh air. I’ve been missing Dave today as well. The boy’s been on my mind. (Ain’t that an understatement?!)
“I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want millions; more than money saved, I wanna save children.”
My lifeline is taunting me I feel. Like I’m on the verge of all these wonderful things and I can see them glistening in the distance and yet at my present space and time they remain unreachable. I can see them with my own two eyes…but I cannot yet feel it. I’m confused with static, constant emotional pain. It’s not constant though either! It feels constant though…like the blanket of a black night.