Reflection from February 1st, 2017 @ Age 35
RE: THE FEAR OF GOD 1.0 — INSTALLATION **PROCESSING** ;0)
Real quick—just wanted to relay that I had a very, mmm…
Elaborately EXTENSIVE dream, last night—none of which I can remember now (i.e. many hours, post-moment-of-awakening, you know)…
But for the most important point, being—my arch-enemy from college (a.k.a. Lindsay Lowa—the female spawn of evil) and I are enemies, no more! Fabulous—I know, I know ;oD
Nahhh, I’m just kiddin’ cause it is awesome, actually—well, that and her appreciation of my appreciation for Missy Elliot, and that’s all the more I can recount on the matter. Notably, because *Confirmation* is in the DVD player, ready to go—also overdue at the library, and particularly relevant to our most very merry present moment here, within “reality” ;oD
And, this super intense menu page music on repeat is driving—me CRAZY…
I had’a take a break real quick, to write…
I’m just to the part in the movie (go HBO ;oD) whereby, Ms. Hill finishes testifying (for the first time, I suppose—at least, that’s all the further yet, I’ve gotten) and then it’s like 9:13pm and Mr. Thomas speaks—blah blah blah right, and here we are to his closing comments regarding “disgust” and “travesty.”
And then, that’s where I put the pause on, to come ask…
I don’t suppose you think, he’s just about to say—“I am so disgusted by the travesty, that President Bush (no.1 of 2) would choose voluntarily to altogether and ENTIRELY disregard the truth—in order to protect himself, from the embarrassment of having made a mistake,” by chance?
Nahhh, I’m just kidding…
I’m not holding MY breath ;oD
I hope he has fun with that ball though, this Superbowl Sunday ;oD
And, otherwise, as Ms. Hill said—it would take a psychological expert—to comprehend [DE]structive, post-traumatic stress disorder “coping” mechanisms. Or, in other words, thank God for that decades’s worth’a therapy I did ++ my love, for LEARNING ;oD
And, for my ability to write like the Dickens—and what, was the last thing? Umm…
All I know, is that—if it MATTERS, it’ll be back.
Reminded me, all that I’d written above in regard to this HBO movie *Confirmation*—reminded me of a point from my Parisian Avenger Video Challenge, last week ;oD
Notably the point wherein I’d said, “I don’t understand people—aside from, their psychological thought patterns.” Which then, of course, relates to my April 2016 Jane Says video; wherein I spoke of the psychological PTSD symptoms I’d endured—watching that People vs. O.J. Simpson FX Series with Marcia Clark, that came out, well…
That also came out, last year ;oD
Boy! And then, there was The Crown and Orange is the New Black—and just all kinds’a interesting things, are happening!
Ohh yeah, but, lest I forget!
The April 2016 Jane Says video wherein I spoke about my having to learn the psychological thought patterns of others—“others,” here, meaning those white males with whom I fell in love, at which point they used me up, and threw me away with the trash. And, actually, in a fashion aptly described by President Trump’s son—prior to **America’s** 2016 Presidential Election ;oD
But anyway, a decade’s worth’a therapy to understand the evil nature of “man”—from out of which said conscious awareness (after the initial shock came and went—and I decided not to kill myself but, rather, to save **America’s** children ;oD) I was able to save, myself. Because you cannot fix, a problem—until you are able to see, the problem. And, you cannot see a problem—until you choose to look at it even though, you’re fully aware (prior to looking) that doing so may just cause you to kill yourself. Sigh…
Okay, back to the movie ;oD
And lastly, then, I’d just like to note—that I was 10-years old when this whole *Confirmation* ordeal was happening.
And, cue the “mental-health” “professionals” ;oD
And now, moving on to the EXORCIST ;oD
How I do love me some white-skinned male.
“She’s all alone out there, Sir…”
Don’t I know, the feeling ;oD
Boy, when I told Senator Coley I thought I was beginning to understand what he’d meant when he said, “Instill the fear of God”—I had no idea that was just the *tip* of the iceberg, in terms of my comprehension regarding same in conjunction to, white-skinned males.