Reflection from September 10th, 2008 @ Age 27
I received praise at work, today, for a ten-page memo I wrote on spendthrift trusts—and, how they work, as applied to the facts of our case. It was really wonderful. Paul said it was exactly what he was looking for—gave me a few corrections in the facts, and an additional idea for the real estate section (delineating the real estate powers outlined in the trust—which, I missed); and then, said again and again, that this was just what he was looking for, and that, the leap he was talking about in my review that he wanted me to take—I had in fact, taken, with this memo. It was really, really wonderful. I like to make my boss proud of my work. I want to do that more often. Now, I just have to figure out how to be “more me,” around my boss—and, just in general, at work. It’s funny, to have a work review—in which your boss requests that you lose your shyness, and just be the entire you, as you naturally are. It’s quite personal, really. What a strange thing, to have to work on.
Other than that, not a whole lot going on. My dad picked up this book from the library, today, called “Madness”—and, it’s supposed to be about a girl, who is bipolar. Now, at first, I was a little worried this girl had taken my idea—but, all her book is about, is the consequences of the drama she created because of her illness. She doesn’t look at her mind—and, her thought processes behind the drama. She just focuses on the drama. Which, I can understand, because I’m sure there are a lot of people who are fascinated with these mad-ass people who slice their arms in two—and, go around having raging fits of anger and destroying everything around them. “Madness,” is a good book describing the symptoms of the illness—but, it doesn’t really focus on the illness itself. There is not much focus on the mind—and, how it functions amidst this crazy illness. That’s what my book is about.
So, anyways, I feel better now that I know my idea has not been taken. I am a one-and-only kind of girl, with a one-and-only kind of mind. And, it shows. I’ve yet to see, though, if the content would be interesting to anyone else at all—let alone, the public at large. I suppose, we shall see. But, in the meantime—yay for me!
It’s like this: if life is a cake recipe that we are trying to perfect, then I got my recipe down JUST RIGHT for now (with the ideal amount of flour, sugar, baking soda, etc.). More sugar, for example, does not necessarily make a better cake! In fact, it might ruin it!
So if you’re not happy with your life, figure out which ingredients make it bitter, and take them out. Don’t believe commercials that tell you to spread more frosting on the top, because then you would simply wind up with a bitter cake that has frosting on it.
People say things like, “If I just go on vacation to Hawai’i, then my life would be better!” The problem is that when you return home from the islands (or, in other words, when you’re done licking the frosting), your bitter cake will still be there waiting for you.
But, and this is the really good part, if you get the ingredients JUST RIGHT, then your life is awesome (with or without frosting). Anything fun you do on top of that is, well, icing on the cake!
We get to try a new recipe every morning (especially if we live our lives to the fullest). So even if your cake ends up bitter one day, that’s okay, make it differently tomorrow. Just never blame other people if your cake doesn’t turn out; we each bake our own cake.
Here’s a secret: while everyone’s recipe is a little different, the main ingredients for a successful batter are love, gratitude, kindness and patience. And the most common ingredient that makes people’s cake bitter is fear, so don’t use it!
Happy baking everybody!
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